Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Audition #1

So I'm a little early for 2010, but I thought I'd count this one anyway. Had an audition tonight for a student film, which was cool because the director seemed more nervous to direct me than I was to be there. See, I suffer from something I call CAMERA PANIC. As soon as I'm aware that a camera is pointed at me, either still photo or moving pictures, I start to feel... awkward and weird. You know that episode of 30 Rock where Jack is going to be in a sketch and he holds 1 coffee mug in each hand doing this "natural" robotic walk? That's how I feel. Particularly in the facial area.

However, the only way out is through, and that means practice, practice, practice. Because I think I'm actually pretty decent on camera (thank you, freakishly big buggy eyes!), I just have to not be self-conscious.

Come to think of it, a lot of aspects of my life would probably improve if I wasn't self-conscious. But of course if you concentrate on NOT being self-conscious, it only exacerbates the situation. Working on it!

I've been writing every day this week-- although I am rusty and it is painful, I get that horrible guilt feeling if I don't write every day. Although I'm thinking of re-titling this "Exposed: An Expose Wherein Dr. Exposition Explains Everything That Has Happened Up Until This Point". Seriously, this is the most boring play ever. Rewrites are in order. But I can't think about that now, because if I convince myself this is stupid, then I won't finish it. And we're already committed to producing it in May, so... you see how self-consciousness works against me?

I don't know if I got the film or not. They did ask for my availability, but that could mean nothing. Or something. Or nothing.

Monday, December 28, 2009

New Year, New...?

I've never been a huge fan of New Year's for the partying aspect-- but as a solid lover of "to-do" lists, I really dig making plans and resolutions. I know, I know, every day is a chance for a new beginning, but there's something "official" about New Year's-- getting a new daytimer, for example-- that makes it a fresh start.
2009 was a good year for me--hey, I got married and did a school tour, what's to complain about? But I want 2010 to be even better. I want 2010 to be the year that I actually committed to doing stuff. And by stuff I mean:

  • finally lose that last 25 pounds
  • make at least one submission a week (acting or writing-- writing will be focused on out of town submissions)
  • sing, publicly
  • book a film/tv job
  • write more
  • make a short film. youtube style
  • blog more

See, I could go on and on making a list of things I want to do. But I have plans, big plans for 2010. Once we get back from Jamaica (I think it's a fool's errand to try and lose weight at an all-inclusive), I'm planning to try Kathy Freston's Quantum Wellness Cleanse, and blog about it. Basically, it's 21 days of eating gluten-free vegan, steering clear of refined sugars. I don't know if it's weight-loss friendly, but I think it would really get me back in the groove of eating healthy, and planning out things like protein. Though I do love my gluten. But there's a plan of meditations and such as well, it's all very Oprah. So look out for 21 blog posts from me in the new year.

As far as submissions go, I realized that while I live in a hideously small market for acting, writing basically means you can live anywhere. And a few comments from people recently have made me realize that I write good plays. I've just gotten down on them because I feel like I'm stagnating here. And even if you only submit once a week, at the end of the year, that's 52 submissions. Law of averages, baby! I have a feeling many of those will be play submissions, but I'll try to keep up on acting submissions as well.

Singing? Argh, the great struggle. My teacher is planning a recital for all his theatre-types, many of whom are actors scared of public singing. So at the very least, I'll be singing in front of like-minded people.

It all seems very career-oriented, doesn't it? I guess I could throw out the idea of paying down some debt this year...
I do love resolving, now I have to learn to love putting plans into action.
Happy happy and merry merry, guys!