So I'm a little early for 2010, but I thought I'd count this one anyway. Had an audition tonight for a student film, which was cool because the director seemed more nervous to direct me than I was to be there. See, I suffer from something I call CAMERA PANIC. As soon as I'm aware that a camera is pointed at me, either still photo or moving pictures, I start to feel... awkward and weird. You know that episode of 30 Rock where Jack is going to be in a sketch and he holds 1 coffee mug in each hand doing this "natural" robotic walk? That's how I feel. Particularly in the facial area.
However, the only way out is through, and that means practice, practice, practice. Because I think I'm actually pretty decent on camera (thank you, freakishly big buggy eyes!), I just have to not be self-conscious.
Come to think of it, a lot of aspects of my life would probably improve if I wasn't self-conscious. But of course if you concentrate on NOT being self-conscious, it only exacerbates the situation. Working on it!
I've been writing every day this week-- although I am rusty and it is painful, I get that horrible guilt feeling if I don't write every day. Although I'm thinking of re-titling this "Exposed: An Expose Wherein Dr. Exposition Explains Everything That Has Happened Up Until This Point". Seriously, this is the most boring play ever. Rewrites are in order. But I can't think about that now, because if I convince myself this is stupid, then I won't finish it. And we're already committed to producing it in May, so... you see how self-consciousness works against me?
I don't know if I got the film or not. They did ask for my availability, but that could mean nothing. Or something. Or nothing.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Monday, December 28, 2009
New Year, New...?
I've never been a huge fan of New Year's for the partying aspect-- but as a solid lover of "to-do" lists, I really dig making plans and resolutions. I know, I know, every day is a chance for a new beginning, but there's something "official" about New Year's-- getting a new daytimer, for example-- that makes it a fresh start.
2009 was a good year for me--hey, I got married and did a school tour, what's to complain about? But I want 2010 to be even better. I want 2010 to be the year that I actually committed to doing stuff. And by stuff I mean:
See, I could go on and on making a list of things I want to do. But I have plans, big plans for 2010. Once we get back from Jamaica (I think it's a fool's errand to try and lose weight at an all-inclusive), I'm planning to try Kathy Freston's Quantum Wellness Cleanse, and blog about it. Basically, it's 21 days of eating gluten-free vegan, steering clear of refined sugars. I don't know if it's weight-loss friendly, but I think it would really get me back in the groove of eating healthy, and planning out things like protein. Though I do love my gluten. But there's a plan of meditations and such as well, it's all very Oprah. So look out for 21 blog posts from me in the new year.
As far as submissions go, I realized that while I live in a hideously small market for acting, writing basically means you can live anywhere. And a few comments from people recently have made me realize that I write good plays. I've just gotten down on them because I feel like I'm stagnating here. And even if you only submit once a week, at the end of the year, that's 52 submissions. Law of averages, baby! I have a feeling many of those will be play submissions, but I'll try to keep up on acting submissions as well.
Singing? Argh, the great struggle. My teacher is planning a recital for all his theatre-types, many of whom are actors scared of public singing. So at the very least, I'll be singing in front of like-minded people.
It all seems very career-oriented, doesn't it? I guess I could throw out the idea of paying down some debt this year...
I do love resolving, now I have to learn to love putting plans into action.
Happy happy and merry merry, guys!
2009 was a good year for me--hey, I got married and did a school tour, what's to complain about? But I want 2010 to be even better. I want 2010 to be the year that I actually committed to doing stuff. And by stuff I mean:
- finally lose that last 25 pounds
- make at least one submission a week (acting or writing-- writing will be focused on out of town submissions)
- sing, publicly
- book a film/tv job
- write more
- make a short film. youtube style
- blog more
See, I could go on and on making a list of things I want to do. But I have plans, big plans for 2010. Once we get back from Jamaica (I think it's a fool's errand to try and lose weight at an all-inclusive), I'm planning to try Kathy Freston's Quantum Wellness Cleanse, and blog about it. Basically, it's 21 days of eating gluten-free vegan, steering clear of refined sugars. I don't know if it's weight-loss friendly, but I think it would really get me back in the groove of eating healthy, and planning out things like protein. Though I do love my gluten. But there's a plan of meditations and such as well, it's all very Oprah. So look out for 21 blog posts from me in the new year.
As far as submissions go, I realized that while I live in a hideously small market for acting, writing basically means you can live anywhere. And a few comments from people recently have made me realize that I write good plays. I've just gotten down on them because I feel like I'm stagnating here. And even if you only submit once a week, at the end of the year, that's 52 submissions. Law of averages, baby! I have a feeling many of those will be play submissions, but I'll try to keep up on acting submissions as well.
Singing? Argh, the great struggle. My teacher is planning a recital for all his theatre-types, many of whom are actors scared of public singing. So at the very least, I'll be singing in front of like-minded people.
It all seems very career-oriented, doesn't it? I guess I could throw out the idea of paying down some debt this year...
I do love resolving, now I have to learn to love putting plans into action.
Happy happy and merry merry, guys!
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